I dreamed that I was on the edge of death and still wasn’t sure what I believed in, and I didn’t like that. So right when I was on the edge of death, I saw the face of God and told everyone around me that I was gonna be okay.
But that dream just makes me so sad because I don’t want to die without something to believe in… I wanna have someone that I 100% believe is gonna happen to me after life that isn’t death. And then I hear stories, like at this guy’s funeral, someone told a story about how he said “God told me I was gonna have a sister when I turned 6” and then he ended up having a little sister when he turned 6. And I just think… how can there be stories like this and there not be a God of some sort?
I just don’t know what to believe in, and I don’t like that. I wanna die having something I believe in. But you can’t force yourself into a Religion, it has to be genuine, so I just don’t know. *sigh* :(