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They try to change me, but they realize they can't.
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5th-Aug-2020 03:58 pm - Friends Only!


Almost all my personal entries on this blog are going to be friend's locked.

If you want to be added, comment or PM me. :)

I don't really care if we have much in common, but I'm curious as to how you found my blog if it wasn't through some common interest.

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Jennette McCurdy, Peace, Happy, Smile
3rd-Aug-2020 08:04 pm - Writing/icon Journal
This is officially the writing/icon Journal for a_wa: http://queenofsharly.livejournal.com/

All older stories and icons are found here:

http://community.livejournal.com/luvontheleftsid/profile

It was originally supposed to be luvontheleftsidE but there was a name cut-off.

If you are my friends, I'll most likely automatically accept you. Unless you have 0, 1, 2, 3 entries, 0 userpics, etc.
Girlfriends, Sharly, Carly/Shelby
14th-Aug-2014 11:49 pm - One Direction concert! (8/11/14)
Soooo, on the 11th I got to experience one of the best days of my life. I GOT TO SEE ONE DIRECTION. This year I've experienced both of my dream concerts. First meeting Fifth Harmony + watching them and Demi Lovato live, then watching One Direction live. The only way it could've been better would've been if I had met 1D (but they took away the M&Gs and I was broke anyway so whatever).

My 1D concert experienceCollapse )
Zayn Malik
24th-Jul-2014 01:24 am - I just wanna see ME smile again
In honor of 1D's 4 year anniversary, I was binge watching old videos of them to celebrate. For a while, it was a really happy day, remembering all the cute little moments and reblogging old tumblr posts. But then, as often happens, I started getting sad.

You tell me that you're sad and lost your way, you tell me that your tears are here to stayCollapse )
Tears, Sad, Glee
28th-Apr-2014 07:43 pm - Let's finish this where it started
So I posted this on tumblr, but I felt like it needed to be here as well because this is where it started. If you haven't read it on tumblr yet and you're my friend, please read this.

Coming Out... ishCollapse )
Normani Hamilton
6th-Apr-2014 05:46 pm - Meeting Janet Mock (4/2/14)
So 2014 is just an amazing year so far. :) I got to meet my favorite girlband Fifth Harmony, and recently, I also got to meet one of my favorite activists/authors, Janet Mock! :D

I don't have as big a story for this one though. My sister and I got to watch her speak for an hour, and answer questions from the audience, and then she got off the stage and ready for the book signing. I took my copy of her book and walked into the line. We (me and Caroline) were some of the first people in line, so it wasn't a big wait like with Fifth Harmony. When it was our turn, she said I had a "nice shirt" and laughed (I was wearing a 1D T-shirt). She and Caroline talked for a few moments as well after she signed my book, and then we both got next to her for a picture. It was nice. I love her. :D

Pics below the cutCollapse )
Normani Hamilton
10th-Mar-2014 03:13 am - Meeting Fifth Harmony (2/23/14)
SO I just realized that I hadn't told you all about the best day ever (2/23/14) aka the day I met Fifth Harmony and saw Demi Lovato perform.

I'm gonna copy and paste the posts I made on tumblr because honestly I'm too lazy to make all new ones. Hahaha (probably wouldn't remember certain details at this point). But I wanted to document this amazing event in as many places as possible, so here we go. :)

Meeting Fifth HarmonyCollapse )
The concertCollapse )

All in all, this was the best concert ever I think. In the past I’ve always had it so the most recent concert ends up being better than the previous ones, but with this one, I think it’s probably gonna be hard for future concerts to beat it. MAYBE One Direction could pull it off. MAYBE. ;) But that’s still kind of doubtful I think.

Because with other concerts, I haven’t felt the same STRONG LOVE for the opening act(s) AND the main event. With Britney in 2011, I LIKED Nicki Minaj, but I didn’t have the STRONG LOVE for her I have for Fifth Harmony. It’s just such an amazing feeling seeing two acts you have strong love for (Demi, 5H) in the same concert and GETTING TO MEET ONE OF THEM.

I wish I could live in 2/23/14 forever. <3
Normani Hamilton
22nd-Jan-2014 01:48 am - Poem dump!
Dumping some poems here that I've posted on tumblr but never here.

Start DrivingCollapse )

Love Is A Strong Word (warning: mentions of abuse)Collapse )

To YouCollapse )
Zayn Malik
7th-Dec-2013 11:46 pm - What do I believe?
I had a dream a few days ago, and I’m still thinking about it.

Warning: Mentions of deathCollapse )
Bible, Love Never Fails, Christianity, Religion
17th-Oct-2013 01:36 am - And another!
Erase Me

I’m tired of crying my eyes out,

Of feeling like I’ve upset someone

By just being myself:

Clingy,

Passionate,

Emotional,

Oversensitive.

My eyes, as well as confidence in my personality,

Have run dry

But I’m sure they will still find some way to cry.

For years, my biggest weapon has been stabbing the pencil against the paper,

Easing the pain with words on lined sheets

But I am tired of reading my own tears,

Feeling like nobody cares enough to listen to them.

Then I stop.

I remember that people do love me and care about me

My ears must be broken though

Because tonight I can’t hear anyone caring.

Or at least, I only hear about 2 people who really care

And I am grateful for those 2 people,

But I still feel it’s not enough

It’s not enough for me to feel like it would really make much of a difference

If I was erased from existence.
Britney Spears
17th-Oct-2013 01:33 am - Why Can't I Change
Please, miss fairy godmother,

If you are out there somewhere,

I’m in need of a wish, and I’m not sure there’s any other

Person I can talk to, but you, who will be able to get me out of here.

My wish is that you will change me

Somehow, make me be well-liked by everyone I love.

I don’t have any mice, pumpkins, or trees,

But I hope that my tears will go above

The call of duty for this.

So please change me,

That is my wish.

I want you to make me be

Confident in every aspect of myself,

Likable,

Someone people will talk to, instead of putting on a shelf.

Nice to people, with no hint of insulting

Because I’m trying my best on my own

But it doesn’t seem to be working.

Please make me be someone worth wanting a friendship with,

Or at least someone who will stop caring

What other people think of my personality, because it’s

Getting exhausting being like this.
Britney Spears
4th-Aug-2013 03:40 am(no subject)
Happy late birthday vinyldreams! :)
Normani Hamilton
18th-Jul-2013 11:09 am(no subject)
Happy birthday ragnarok_08! :) Hope you have a good day.
Normani Hamilton
4th-Jun-2013 01:59 am(no subject)
Well, I've graduated (that happened on May 25) and tomorrow I'm gonna do class registration for community college.

Nothing else really eventful has happened recently, except one of my sisters (Caroline) got a kitten named Hazel Anne and today I hung out with Hailey at an ice cream place which was pretty awesome. :)
Zayn Malik
8th-Feb-2013 10:55 pm(no subject)
Hello. :)

So if you're reading this post, thank you for being one of the few people who still reads this journal.

My new grade resolution for senior year was to go on LiveJournal more and I did. I've been over at ohnotheydidnt as well as 2 One Direction communities on here posting comments like crazy.

Anyway, the point of this post is that I am still here. I'm just not posting as much anymore. I think I'm going to become one of those journals that uses LJ mostly for communities.

So yes, this account is still active. I'm still alive. I just use this for communities more now. :)

And hey, this could change. Maybe even tomorrow I'll start posting like crazy on here like I did 8th - 9th grade again, who knows? but this entry is just to let you know that yes, I am still here. I just am not using LJ for journal entries much anymore.

Thank you. <3
Christmas, Zayn Malik3
1st-Dec-2012 10:23 pm - Slow enough, I'm giving up.....
I should’ve never watched The X Factor. It’s only proven more for me that I should just give up on my dreams.

The things they’ve said you need: the perfect confidence in yourself and your art, the perfect look, the perfect talent.

I’ve had confidence, but ever since 8th grade, it’s been slowly fading away. Now I realize I don’t have the kind of confidence a job like professional singing needs.

Tonight I performed at open mic during capernaum. I was so nervous and didn’t have a lot of confidence. That’s when I realized that it’s not getting better.

But the thing about confidence is that you can’t force yourself to have it. I’ve tried and I’ve tried to gain back confidence but I just… can’t do it. And that’s not a good thing for professional singing.

I won’t compare myself to others because I’ve learned not to anymore thanks to a few people, but I just know that I don’t have the perfect talent.

And then there’s my back-up plan of writing. I don’t wanna self-publish, and recently, this guest speaker came in to Creative Writing class. She’s in her 40s and just now finally getting something actually published. Also, there’s the fact that ever since sophomore year I’ve had terrible writer’s block.

Singing and writing have been the only 2 things I enjoyed doing. And in my mind, I can’t just do a job for even a second if something I don’t enjoy. But if I don’t have the confidence to do either of those things, then I’m helpless.

I guess it’s finally come down to the fact that I’m not gonna be able to do anything with my life. I’m helpless, I’m hopeless, there’s nothing I can do.
Tears, Sad, Glee
26th-Nov-2012 04:23 pm(no subject)
Happy birthday enchantedkiss_x!

I don't have any money for virtual gifts, so here's a picture of Louis and Zayn instead:

Louis Tomlinson and Zayn Malik

Hope you have a great birthday. <3
Miley Cyrus, Miley Stewart
23rd-Nov-2012 07:46 pm - iGoodbye
A letter to iCarlyCollapse )
Tears, Sad, Glee
23rd-Nov-2012 06:52 pm - Happy birthday, Miley Cyrus!
I have two letters to write tonight - one sad (to iCarly) and one happy (to our birthday girl, Miley Cyrus) so I decided to do the happy one first.

Dear Miley Cyrus,Collapse )
Miley Cyrus, Miley Stewart
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